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I am so excited…. ! i really didnt expect to lose anything this week…. with my cookie delema,  my icecream binge…  but i did it!  Guess it was all the other good choices that i made…  really helps me to stick to it when i see progress!  Added the ‘Fat Burners’  tab… think that will help me keep track of daily exercise, but just started that …

Plus i got in all my water today!

Wow day 5 already… honest questions to myself  –> have a done good? stuck to what i wanted to do? exercised every day? — hmm no, a slight disappoint in myself — the other night both the girls were crying, i was trying to give them a bath cause it was so hot out, they’re both screaming there heads off cause they were over tired, then a spider jumped out and tried to attack my foot (no joke!), hubby wasnt helping at all… i was tired, hungry, blah blah… so finallllly got them put to bed, and what did i do??  NO, not go for a run to blow off steam and feel better, thankyou to those ppl with some faith in me that might have done that…………..  i sat down and ate a big bowl of icecream, with peanuts, chocolate chips and banana on it !!!! have to admit it was really good,…. but as you all know, you feel disappointed in your self cause YOU KNOW you could have made a better call on that one!!!   the jog probably would have put me in a better mood….  but WHY oh WHY does have to make u feel good to… well at least while its going down…

A n y w a y s … thats my sob story for today….  but i promise myself that i will make a better decision next time im feeling stressed out and at my wits end !

Oh and thanks to those ppl with the ideas for exercising with small children around !

AHH …  ok so i made some chocolate chip cookies on Sunday… bad decision… but i had stuff to make them and thought it would be nice for hubby and kids….  sigh sigh … of course i cant stay away from them and then hubby asked me if i had been eating them and i said ‘a couple’ haha he said more than a couple your in denial!!  which is true i did eat more than a couple and maybe i am in denial but wasnt going to admit that to him  ‘mr. thin, eat what i want and not have a prob”  (although i did tell him hes getting a small beer belly hehe)  anywayssss  i get so mad at myself when i eat what i really dont want to eat, but they’re so good?!?!  i just cant make stuff i dont want to eat, thats the bottom line, dont have the self control YET so i just cant have it in the house!

Well ill be writing tonight to record how my day went… maybe that will help, having to write an account on what i did today…

Oh yeah… another prob being having…  i get the baby to sleep, savana watching a favorite dvd, get myself mentally prepared for exercising and get one minute into it, and the baby wakes up!  happens everrrrry time, like she knows i need to be busy for 20 mins ! lol …   oh welllll.. ill figure something out ! haha

Its been a long year….  soon after my last post i found out i was preg…  good & bad… it wasn’t planned so thats the bad part, but a sister for savana is the good

I was really sick at the beginning and crackers just wouldnt cut it, needed to eat something substantial and every couple of hours so of course my weight starting creeping up …  wouldnt let them tell me how much i weighed the whole preg. until i had to know when i was in labour so i could get the epidural lol ….  207!  ekk …  but hey some was baby weight right???

Well now im at my 6 week post partum… so stepped on the scale today….   175….  so i guess not as bad as i thought !  started exercising and eating good….  sooooo tired of battling this weight just want to stick to it and get there!!!   (oh and i did get my tubes tied… hehe.. no more surprises… )

So i didnt forget about everyone on here and the encouragements that everyone has had for me….   hopefully you guys have all done good this past year!!!!

Well i have been sooo busy that i havent even been on here!!  i need to clone myself, or get more hours into a day… something !! between work, starting my business, caring for my baby, running the house, getting the garden ready, starting to stack wood for next winter (No!!) , trying to get in some exercise, grocery shopping, trying to EAT right, trying to cook right… and the list goes on and on and on… but i guess thats what us women do!!  but i’m trying not to stress… (yeah right..)  and summer is getting closer and closer, and i really wanted to get to some of my goals by the end of May… actually i wanted to Reach my final goal by the end of May…. hmmmm dont think i’m going to get that far…. but i want to at least reach SOME goal… so thats my goal … stay possitive.. and reach a mini goal….

Sorry Julie! didnt reach my April 23 goal! but hey its an other new day… so only forward i go… i really like the food journal so i need to get into using that again.. it helps !! for me anyways…

Well i’m off and running again!

Until this week…!!  Its obviously about a week before the great ‘time of the month’  because i’m starving!!  ~ why why why …! … ok i’m trying to stay away from the junky food, i have my salad made for today and tomorrow, my veggies cut up,… i’m trying to be prepared to reach for the ‘good’ stuff when i’m feeling hungry instead of the doritos sitting on my table , and the icecream in the freezer, and the cookies in the cubard!!   i am definetly going to go and buy those sugarfree fudgesickles!! (thanks for the idea girls!) cause those will be great for the chocolate hit that i know i am going to need!!

I think i need to plan to get out of the house ! that will help… because right now everything is calling my name!  But i’ll stick it out… i know i can !

Lou had a great saying and i wrote it out in really big letters and stuck it on my fridge “Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels” !

Well it has been an alright week so far… could be better though, but i guess i have the remainder of the week to do better… I do REALLY well during the day, i eat my snacks, make a healthy breakfast, healthy lunch, but it just seems that i want to fall apart around dinner… i just feel like i’m starving by 4 o’clock!! i think i need to have a bit bigger snack in the afternoon…   and then after dinner, around 7 or 8 my sweet tooth attacks!!   its horrible!  i gave in last night and had a cookie…. i know one cookie isnt too too bad,, but i was disappointed in myself, since i only want to use one day a week to have something “bad” ….  and i want that for the weekend …. 

So not sure how to overcome this obstacle….. my aunt suggested buying the fat-free chocolate pudding, guess that is on weight watchers…  and even put the fat -free whipped topping on it…… but that just seems so Bad ??  but she said its alright, and it really helps with the sweet tooth….   soooo…. i might try it….     if any one else has any other suggestions ???

Its still cold here… it snowed again last night… hate hate hate it…. i know i’m always b*ching about it but i asked my hubby if we could move somewhere warm!?!   …. guess that wont happen, but its just very depressing to me…

Well guess i’ll go, its exercising time…. hopefully that will make me feel better ….

Well i had a good weekend..  and i have found that exercise IS important… this weekend i didnt really work out too hard.. crunchs, squats, leg lifts, lunches, more situps…… (but i was sweating!) but just that little bit put me in such a good positive mind frame… and it really makes me want to stick to my eating plan, cause you realize how HARD it is too work it off! 

Looking forward to my fatherinlaws treadmill.. hopefully this week he gets it! then i can at least go and walk or jog.. (havent jogged since last summer!) 

i would LOVE to try the Turbo Jam (has anyone tried it??) … but it was like $80.00 to order it (you got 7 dvds plus some other bonus stuff)…  i think its like taebo…  and it looked like they had some good ab workouts… looked kinda fun… (fun?!? lol)  maybe i’ll save for it…

Well tuesday will be my 2 weeks of South Beach… but i think that i will just add back in the oatmeal (love it for breakfast)  and the fruit… (missed it!!)   But i’m not going to add back in the bread…. i’m going to try and stay away from that …

OHH and did i say that i lost 2 pounds!! woo hoo …!!  although my weigh in day is tomorrow !

Stay positive girls… … p.e.a.c.e

After seeing Angela’s bravery of stepping into a bathing suit and taking pictures… and reading on an other site that its good to take before/after pics,, so you can see a change… i talked myself into getting on my bikini (the one i ONLY wear for suntanning when no ones around)  and set up the camera and OMGoodness…  it was horrible !!  is that what i LOOK LIKE ! .. ok it is depressing,, but on the other side it will probably help to keep me motivated!!  hmm just trying to decide #1 If i should post them on here.. and #2 do i dare print them and put them on the fridge!! well it would help me NOT open the fridge thats for sure!! lol (not a laughing matter!)  

So for those of you who havent done this humiliating thing… if your brave enough… do it…  it just might help… i was also telling Jane about the Body for Life that my sister did…  those that are not familiar with it, it is a 12 week challenge of food/exercise (cardio & weight training - dont need the gym for)  i actually really like the cardio… its only 20 mins but OMGoodness… i was sweating and worked out more than when i did my 40 min… !  (if any one is interested mail me - i’ll explain more)  the food plan isnt too bad either… healthy eating.. probably similar to SouthB phase #2 …  you can see some before/after pics on bodyforlife.com … click success stories…  (girls in bikinis!)  some got a little to “buff” for me…  but my sis did AWESOME in it!  .. she lost and she toned!! (and she was never one to ‘look toned’ )  anyways…………….. kinda got off topic but when i read about taking before/after photos on Bodyforlife… just had to do it ….. (ekkk)

Good luck !

Have been busy the last couple of days… so just need to update myself..   i’m feeling better since my last post, although we did get about 4 inch of snow last night!!  sucks sucks…   

on a good note, my father-in-law lives next door, and his wife is buying a treadmill! yeah!   at least i’ll be able to get on that till this weather goes away!  so kinda excited about that …  also  found some exercise videos at the library (thanks those who suggested it)  but the funny thing is , is that they are from 1988! its hilarious.. !  its was a couple of Denise Austin’s…  so i googled her,, and she’s still going strong!  has books and DVDs…….. 

Well, i stepped on the scale although my weigh in day isnt till monday… and it still hasnt gone down !! frustrating..!  but i think i know what it is… (never thought i would say this.. but.. ) i dont think i’m eating enough… yesterday i had breakfast, went out (took my snack with me) thinking i would be back by lunch… but i wasnt and then by the time i got home i had to leave right away so didnt have lunch or my afternoon snack!  then i had dinner late.. and no snack after.. so my total calories for yesterday was like 500!! and the day before wasn’t really any better!   and i know that you have to eat to lose ! …so thats my goal the next couple of days, to get into some sort of routine (and pack stuff if i’m going out!) so that i get all my mini-meals in!  There is one good thing i can say about the last couple of days, is that i think i shrunk my stomach abit cause i’m not as hungry (dont have those craving as much as i had) and when i do eat i’m fuller faster… so thats a good thing…  and im up to a gallon of water a day!! 

I’m loving the food journal on here… although does it only hold so many “favorite foods” ??  cause i had put some on there and it seems that a couple of them got bumped off?.. or do you have to “check” “save to favorites” every time ?? 

well guess i’ll go and exercise since Savana’s down for her nap already.. (we are up at 5:30)  TTYGL !